I am happy. Happy is me. Don't mistake that. But, I can't help but feeling something is missing. What, I don't know. At least not yet. Some days I want to move. Move anywhere, under the premise I can do anything for a year. Hawaii, Chicago, why not? Some days I fantasize at the chance to be someone different, to try something so completely foreign that the excitement of this hope makes me feel like a new person. I am excited to think, ok, I'm going to find it. The highly regarded "It." That missing piece that once it's here, I will be whole. I will be the 100% best me I can be. Other days, I am a wave of emotion that ebbs and flows as the day goes on and I have no clue where to start. Sometimes the mere thought of doing anything at all is so overwhelming that I only want to sit on the couch and watch Ellen. Who doesn't love to laugh and dance along with her?
If you asked me when I was ten years old where I'd be today, my answer would no more resemble my life than a cult revival resembles a frat party. But that's ok. My first post here is one of hope. I want to write something I would want to read. I wish there was someone, a little bird in my ear telling me that the life I planned is not here yet, because it will be bigger, better and different than what that ten year old girl imagined.
Sometimes your head gets blurred with ideas and possibilities, but deep down, your heart always knows. If your's is anything like mine, it can't tell you no. It will always steer you in the direction you need to be going...
You are right...life has bigger plans than you ever imagined at 10, Brooke, and I can't wait for them to be revealed:-) xoxo
ReplyDeleteLove You! Things dont always go as we pictured them to go but Im a true believer that's because there's a bigger more wonserful plan out there we just don't know what is yet! Trust your heart and you can never go wrong!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful.....that is so you. I dont think too many folks have the life they imagined when they were young. But every day and every thing that happens during our lives, make up who we are today....and you are one of my ABSOLUTE favs! xoxo
ReplyDeleteOne day when you're old and boring, you'll look back on these "go anywhere, do anything" days and smile! Like you said, your heart will lead you on all kinds of unpredictable adventures. The beauty of life :o)
ReplyDeleteThanks for inviting me to follow! Love ya and hope to see you soon.